Background
I (Kelsey) am facing a major surgery soon. Due to a pelvic and rectal wall prolapse, my colon has fallen out of place. To fix this, surgeons will need to attach my colon to my sacrum (spine) using mesh to keep it secure. This is not an easy or pleasant procedure, especially to go through alone.
The truth is, I don’t feel comfortable asking anyone to take care of me the way I need, except for my husband. While I do have family, I know that most people aren’t eager to dedicate their time to caring for someone else. It feels like, in today’s world, everyone is so consumed with their own lives. Often, when I share my pain with others, the conversation quickly turns to their own struggles, leaving my words unheard. So why would I rely on family or friends for help during this time?
I’ve grown used to handling things on my own, and this surgery feels like just another challenge I’ll face by myself. The pain I’ve endured these past months has been excruciating—so much so that the surgery itself feels insignificant in comparison to the bigger heartbreak of my husband being unjustly imprisoned for a crime he didn’t commit. That tragedy looms larger than any physical pain I could endure. Here is how our day starts....
Michael wrote:
Hey Baby!
Ive beening praying let me know when you wake up and are ok!
I had a random meeting with my new Case Manager and explained my situation.
He is the Real Deal!!!
He said I am here for and reason and we need to write a book (I didnt tell him about our books or anything)
Howley needs to talk to him about First Step Act - Second Chance Act - Prison system
Babe I love you God is with us!!!
One of the Last things our Case Manager said was "God put you here and gave you all this because you can handle it and will make it through, you need to tell your story all the way to the top!"
I Love You!!!
You are so Right and I prayed about what you said last night about me writing with my time in here and God answered my pray today!
Now I need to know you are ok!!!?
Kelsey Wrote:
9:38
I wish you were here too! They have me hooked up and I have already gotten an Iv, a shot in my abs, and all the other pre-admission stuff so far. They said the surgery will most likely start at 12!
Baby, I cried so many times this weekend and today because I love you so much. I'm trying to be strong too like you. Why would you ever think that I would think less of you for crying? Babe? I think it's strange if you weren't emotional in an emotional time. I can't even begin to imagine what you're going through. I want to make everything better and take it all away from you. Your right! It's just a season and we are going to be the strongest ever when we reunite.
I just keep imagining me straddling you and my whole body is pressing up against yours. I'm kissing your neck as you kiss mine. We are in a total state of bliss and love with one another. I want this
You are my man now and always!
I love you!!!
You and me baby!
Michael Wrote:
Hey Baby,
When you read this I hope you smile, Do you remember when Raspberry had babies and every 6 months we would have all the little babies to take of!!! They were so great and I loved those little babies!
You are the best momma!!!
I am so proud and happy you are my wife and momma now!!!
We thought about keeping so many babies!
Maybe when I get out we can get another baby for Blueberry to ***** and have more Kittens! I am sure Ally would love to help and watch them if we had to leave!
Anyways babe, Listen to me!
We have to make our story known and you were right about me writing in here!
My new Case Manager put things even into more perspective and gave me so much more insight into the system!
Need List
1. 2 - Thesaurus
2. Soft Cover Good Journey a good one to write in
3. Dictionary
4. Pictures A lot of Fishing Pictures - Stripers and Catfish and Family - People Don't believe me about our fishing -Farm and PIF pictures too! "FREE PRINTS" "SHUTTERFLY" - send to Prison and don't forget my inmate
Babe, we have to be patient God's plan is bigger than ours. I love you and you have gotten so much tougher and wiser in the time we have been apart! I am so proud of you and grateful to have you! You amazed me, my love!!!
Think about this my new Case Manager was a Marine and did 5 tours and 20 contracts, he is 40 years old and was away from his wife and 2 kids for 8 years on and off a year at a time!
This is nothing compared to what that had to be like... Right? Can you Imagine! Knowing that He said we HAVE TO TELL OUR STORY AND BURN THIS PLACE DOWN AND THE SYSTEM!!! CNN Trump all the way to the Top!!!
Think about that my love and I wish I was there to help you but this is all part of it and part of God's plan! Our Story keeps getting better and better through the hardships and struggles we gain power and our story gets better and better that no one will be able to deny!!!
I LOVE YOU!!!
YOU AND ME
Thank you for being My Girl!!!
Kelsey wrote:
Baby,
I love you so much and you not being physically here with me creates a burning void inside that hurts. That burning void is the burning desire to have my husband and you know what Napoleon Hill said about a person who has a burning desire. I know you and I will see our devotion in full fruition because there is no other way. Just like our marriage, our family, and us.
Baby I will wait for you until the end of time if I have to, just to be near you. I am so much in love with you that I have become you. Baby, I can still smell you and feel you still now even though I'm back home. I can feel your face almost scrape against mine and your aroma that I can not get enough of. You're intoxicating in the most refreshing and perfect way.
My love for you is like the most beautiful painting. You and I outside holding hands looking out across our garden, hearing birds singing, insects chirping smelling the fresh breeze of our roses in the air. Our love is so precious and we hold each other so dear to one another. We were made by God to fit perfectly together like a puzzle. Each piece of our puzzle comes together until the end of our long journey with one another. That will be our most beautiful painting. Our painting of life side-by-side.
Verse: "He who finds a wife finds what is good and receives favor from the Lord."
Proverbs 18 : 22
God favors you and I and keeps blessing us by answering our prayers. "Again, truly I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything they ask for, it will be done for them by my Father in heaven."
Matthew 18 : 19
If you can't tell by now, love isn't a powerful enough of a word to describe my affection for you. I want you to know that I am with you always and I miss my soulmate. Looking into your eyes I know you feel exactly how I do. It's the most beautiful feeling to know you are loved and cared for in such a manner. Something I do not take lightly or ever forget. How can you forget the most precious gem in your soul? How can you forget the most important piece of your being?
Your lover, best friend, soulmate, and wife,
Kelsey Ann Sylvara
We have this baby. You and me together only
Michael Wrote:
Babe!
You have grown so powerful and have gained so much understanding and wisdom over the last 10 weeks!
Over the last 3 years you have grown 1000 times over and I didn't believe you would be able to keep up that growth rate!
But You are The One and you have grown even more and even faster then ever before!
Your understanding and spiritual vision has gotten so powerful you are seeing through time and space!!!
You are The One!!!!
I love you!!!
Babe I am so proud of you!!!
We got this!!!
What a story we are living!!!
You cant make this up, What a story and we will come out on Top!
We have God on our Side!!!!!!
YOU AND ME!!!
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Michael Wrote again:
My Lover,
My strong, prudent, brave, faithful, loving, beautiful, courageous, smart, powerful wife, I love you!
Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up.
Luke 18:1
The Failure to persevere is the most common problem in prayer and intercession. We begin to pray for something, raising our petitions for a day, a week, or even a month, but then if we have not received a definite answer, we quickly give up and stop praying for it altogether.
This is a mistake with deadly consequences and is simply a trap where we begin many things but never see them completed, It leads to ruin in every area of life. People who get into the habit of starting without ever finishing form the habit failure. And those who begin praying about something without ever praying it through to a successful conclusion form the same habit in prayer. Giving up is admitting failure and defeat. Defeat then leads to discouragement and doubt in the power of prayer, and that is fatal to the success of a person's prayer life.
People often ask, "How long should I pray? Shouldn't I come to the place where I stop praying and leave the matter in God's hands?" The only answer is this: Pray until what you pray for has been accomplished or until you have complete assurance in your heart that it will be. Only when one of these two conditions has been met is it safe to stop persisting in prayer, for prayer not only is calling upon God but is also a battle with Satan. And because God uses our intercession as a mighty weapon of victory in the conflict, He alone must decide when it is safe to cease from petitioning. Therefore we dare not stop praying until either the answer itself has come or we receive assurance it will come.
In the first instance, we stop because we actually see the answer. In the second, we stop because we believe, and faith in our hearts is as trustworthy as the sight of our eyes, for it is "faith from God" (Ephesians 6:23) and the "faith of God" (Romans 3:3) that we have within us.
As we live a life of prayer, we will more and more come to experience and recognize this God-given assurance. We will know when to quietly rest in it or when to continue praying until we receive His answer.
Wait at God's promise until He meets you there, for He always returns by the path of His promises!
My Lover and Partner I am not going to stop praying for me to home until God brings me back to you!
I am not going to stop praying for your health and strength until you are 100% and I am back to protect you and support you my love!
I am so proud to have you and call Kelsey Ann Sylvara my wife!!!
Kelsey Ann Sylvara I love you so much!
YOU are so strong babe and I am so proud of you baby!!!
YOU AND ME
I LOVE YOU '
YOU ARE THE ONE ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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